DISCLAIMER: Before reading this blog entry, I would like to say a few things to the reader. Although still legal in several states, including California, Salvia Divinorum extract is an herb that must be treated responsibly and respectfully. Salvia Divinorum, at high potency, can act as an extreme hallucinogen, rivaling the effects of magic mushrooms and LSD. It is highly recommended that the user have a sitter with them (I certainly learned this the hard way) with any form of extract, especially 20x and higher.
Finally, I got home from work. A hard day of work, for that matter. Frustration had finally settled and my mood had changed to relaxed. I certainly felt thankful for my co-workers who kept me sane throughout the day. This whole week had been absolutely relentless, what with the sudden weather changes and all. I headed into my room and took all my stuff out of my pocket and placed it next to my TV: wallet, ipod, cell phone, and a piece of crumpled receipt from Julie's Kitchen. Jeez, I couldn't believe I paid that much for a meal. Absolutely ridiculous. I changed into my sweats and turned on the TV to see what was on. Nothing I was in the mood for...I turned on my laptop and loaded it up to check the internet...nothing I was interested in....I still couldn't shake the fact that this week has been so painfully harsh for me and my coworkers. My lips, snappy and my temper short, I needed to just have a moment to myself. I looked around my room, wondering what to do that would quench my boredom. A few moments passed as the TV was set on a show entitled "Locked Up Abroad" and my eyes caught an empty BB pellet container. Well, not necessarily empty, actually...I snagged the container and sat on my bed, unscrewing the top off. I reached in to pull out a small little ziplock bag that was labeled "Organic Salvia Divinorum 20x" and placed it in front of me.
I had previously ordered the Salvia from an incredible online vendor called Arena Ethnobotanicals and had used it twice before with some pretty intense experiences. I was certainly determined to smoke this tonight and nothing was going to stop me. I got out of bed and with some much needed force, opened my badly structured door to the closet and pulled out my glass pipe Beatrix. I immediately loaded about half a gram of Salvia Divinorum into the bowl on top of a three pronged glass screen while I listened to the lady on "Locked Up Abroad" talk about her tragic experience of being locked up in Tokyo. She continued to talk about having to take baths on her knees with several other girls with only three cups of water available for each person, showing an overly dramatized reenactment of her experience unfold as she began to rebel against the woman officer in charge of watching them. I made sure the Salvia was well placed into the bowl and immediately took the first hit, using my green lighter and watching the smoke swirl into the pipe and the little dragon inside puff out a small amount of fire. I kept the smoke in for about ten seconds, but was interrupted by a violent cough. It wasn't the harshest I've ever tried, but it did the job.
The room began to feel like a slow wave, as if the whole place was floating in the ocean. My depth perception quickly changed. Things felt far away from me, the voice of the lady on the TV was muffled. I sat there for a few seconds and finally came to a conclusion. I didn't take that hit hard enough. I picked up my pipe and took another hit, but this time, forced myself to keep the smoke in as long as I could. I turned the pipe around and sucked the rest of the smoke out and held it in for 20-30 seconds. I felt the change in seconds. The room was shaking, but slow at the same time. My vision was more vibrant and the colors around me were almost blinding. I finally let the smoke out and waited for a second, staring at the TV, as the lady from "Locked Up Abroad" was speaking. Suddenly, the TV began to "malfunction" in a really strange way. The picture of the lady began to simultaneously switch into another image. A very dark image of a young girl around 10-12 years old in her nightgown, sitting down on the floor of a dark hallway, illuminated by moonlight, making the lighter shadows a blueish tint. She was leaning on the wall with her arms wrapped around her knees simply staring at me.
I could not comprehend what I was watching. Where did this little girl come from? Who was she? I continued to stare at her as she stared at me when I realized that the voice of the woman speaking on "Locked Up Abroad" began to change drastically. Her voice became louder and almost trance-like. It was no longer the voice of the woman, but of the young girl who appeared before me. The voice was at an excruciating volume as she spoke. Her voice was frightening. Otherworldly. Incredible. As I contemplated, she began to speak to me, something that took me by surprise, as I jumped back into the corner of my bed, leaning on the wall.
She asked me with that ungodly voice, "What's wrong? Why do you look scared?"
Her voice carrying a hint of sarcasm, she continued to speak to me, saying ridiculous things I tried to block out.
Before I knew it, I began to speak back. I yelled at the TV, "No! This isn't real! You're not real!"
I yelled, and couldn't stop myself as she denied me. Before I knew it, the TV began to emit black and white psychedelic waves into my room and everything I looked at turned into the little girl. My vision began to duplicate the images I was staring at whether it was the TV or the door to the living room. I began to panic and buried my head into my pillow. I couldn't believe what was happening to me and assured myself that all of this was not real. However, the little girl would not have it as she continued her attempts at getting my attention. I knew she was in the room already. I could feel her watching me as I lost control of myself. Everything in my room was converging and suffocating me. I jumped out of the bed as she stared at me, continuing her morbid talk. I began marching around my small room, kicking my knees as high as I could. I knew I was doing it, but I couldn't stop. My mind had become independent from my body and I just watched as I made a fool of myself. I was sweating...I didn't know what to do but continue to march around the room. Perhaps my body thought that if I did it enough, the effects would wear off. A few more minutes passed and I sat down on the edge of my bed.
I had gone crazy, I thought. The girl laughed, that otherworldly voice becoming even more unbearable. She laughed for what seemed like forever, then finally, a sense of calm set in. The TV stopped malfunctioning and I had control of my body again. The little girl was gone and the TV was showing a commercial. I didn't feel groggy or sick...nothing. What just happened to me, I thought. I looked at the clock and noticed that only 10 minutes had passed since the effects set in. I was hallucinating. I knew I was hallucinating, but it felt so real. I had to reconcile with the illusions I had seen and what was reality. With the experience, I had drawn a very thin line between two worlds. I couldn't stop thinking about what I saw. I still can't stop thinking about it. It felt too real. Why did I easily lose control over my mind? Who was this young girl who manifested from the TV and into my room? I was terrified. Scared. Intrigued. Most people would consider this a really bad trip, but I am one who takes an experience and urges myself to delve in further. I want to know more. Was she apart of my subconscious? Will I ever see her again?
I always considered myself a strong-willed person and strong-minded as well. But experiences such as this really show how fragile the human mind is. I am not one to seek out any sort of enlightenment from any type of drug because, simply, I'm not that type of person who depends on a substance to guide me or make my decisions. However, an experience such as this has surely got me thinking, and like I said, I haven't stopped thinking about it since it happened two nights ago.
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Only the highest quality of salvia and other herbs.
Finally, I got home from work. A hard day of work, for that matter. Frustration had finally settled and my mood had changed to relaxed. I certainly felt thankful for my co-workers who kept me sane throughout the day. This whole week had been absolutely relentless, what with the sudden weather changes and all. I headed into my room and took all my stuff out of my pocket and placed it next to my TV: wallet, ipod, cell phone, and a piece of crumpled receipt from Julie's Kitchen. Jeez, I couldn't believe I paid that much for a meal. Absolutely ridiculous. I changed into my sweats and turned on the TV to see what was on. Nothing I was in the mood for...I turned on my laptop and loaded it up to check the internet...nothing I was interested in....I still couldn't shake the fact that this week has been so painfully harsh for me and my coworkers. My lips, snappy and my temper short, I needed to just have a moment to myself. I looked around my room, wondering what to do that would quench my boredom. A few moments passed as the TV was set on a show entitled "Locked Up Abroad" and my eyes caught an empty BB pellet container. Well, not necessarily empty, actually...I snagged the container and sat on my bed, unscrewing the top off. I reached in to pull out a small little ziplock bag that was labeled "Organic Salvia Divinorum 20x" and placed it in front of me.
I had previously ordered the Salvia from an incredible online vendor called Arena Ethnobotanicals and had used it twice before with some pretty intense experiences. I was certainly determined to smoke this tonight and nothing was going to stop me. I got out of bed and with some much needed force, opened my badly structured door to the closet and pulled out my glass pipe Beatrix. I immediately loaded about half a gram of Salvia Divinorum into the bowl on top of a three pronged glass screen while I listened to the lady on "Locked Up Abroad" talk about her tragic experience of being locked up in Tokyo. She continued to talk about having to take baths on her knees with several other girls with only three cups of water available for each person, showing an overly dramatized reenactment of her experience unfold as she began to rebel against the woman officer in charge of watching them. I made sure the Salvia was well placed into the bowl and immediately took the first hit, using my green lighter and watching the smoke swirl into the pipe and the little dragon inside puff out a small amount of fire. I kept the smoke in for about ten seconds, but was interrupted by a violent cough. It wasn't the harshest I've ever tried, but it did the job.
The room began to feel like a slow wave, as if the whole place was floating in the ocean. My depth perception quickly changed. Things felt far away from me, the voice of the lady on the TV was muffled. I sat there for a few seconds and finally came to a conclusion. I didn't take that hit hard enough. I picked up my pipe and took another hit, but this time, forced myself to keep the smoke in as long as I could. I turned the pipe around and sucked the rest of the smoke out and held it in for 20-30 seconds. I felt the change in seconds. The room was shaking, but slow at the same time. My vision was more vibrant and the colors around me were almost blinding. I finally let the smoke out and waited for a second, staring at the TV, as the lady from "Locked Up Abroad" was speaking. Suddenly, the TV began to "malfunction" in a really strange way. The picture of the lady began to simultaneously switch into another image. A very dark image of a young girl around 10-12 years old in her nightgown, sitting down on the floor of a dark hallway, illuminated by moonlight, making the lighter shadows a blueish tint. She was leaning on the wall with her arms wrapped around her knees simply staring at me.
I could not comprehend what I was watching. Where did this little girl come from? Who was she? I continued to stare at her as she stared at me when I realized that the voice of the woman speaking on "Locked Up Abroad" began to change drastically. Her voice became louder and almost trance-like. It was no longer the voice of the woman, but of the young girl who appeared before me. The voice was at an excruciating volume as she spoke. Her voice was frightening. Otherworldly. Incredible. As I contemplated, she began to speak to me, something that took me by surprise, as I jumped back into the corner of my bed, leaning on the wall.
She asked me with that ungodly voice, "What's wrong? Why do you look scared?"
Her voice carrying a hint of sarcasm, she continued to speak to me, saying ridiculous things I tried to block out.
Before I knew it, I began to speak back. I yelled at the TV, "No! This isn't real! You're not real!"
I yelled, and couldn't stop myself as she denied me. Before I knew it, the TV began to emit black and white psychedelic waves into my room and everything I looked at turned into the little girl. My vision began to duplicate the images I was staring at whether it was the TV or the door to the living room. I began to panic and buried my head into my pillow. I couldn't believe what was happening to me and assured myself that all of this was not real. However, the little girl would not have it as she continued her attempts at getting my attention. I knew she was in the room already. I could feel her watching me as I lost control of myself. Everything in my room was converging and suffocating me. I jumped out of the bed as she stared at me, continuing her morbid talk. I began marching around my small room, kicking my knees as high as I could. I knew I was doing it, but I couldn't stop. My mind had become independent from my body and I just watched as I made a fool of myself. I was sweating...I didn't know what to do but continue to march around the room. Perhaps my body thought that if I did it enough, the effects would wear off. A few more minutes passed and I sat down on the edge of my bed.
I had gone crazy, I thought. The girl laughed, that otherworldly voice becoming even more unbearable. She laughed for what seemed like forever, then finally, a sense of calm set in. The TV stopped malfunctioning and I had control of my body again. The little girl was gone and the TV was showing a commercial. I didn't feel groggy or sick...nothing. What just happened to me, I thought. I looked at the clock and noticed that only 10 minutes had passed since the effects set in. I was hallucinating. I knew I was hallucinating, but it felt so real. I had to reconcile with the illusions I had seen and what was reality. With the experience, I had drawn a very thin line between two worlds. I couldn't stop thinking about what I saw. I still can't stop thinking about it. It felt too real. Why did I easily lose control over my mind? Who was this young girl who manifested from the TV and into my room? I was terrified. Scared. Intrigued. Most people would consider this a really bad trip, but I am one who takes an experience and urges myself to delve in further. I want to know more. Was she apart of my subconscious? Will I ever see her again?
I always considered myself a strong-willed person and strong-minded as well. But experiences such as this really show how fragile the human mind is. I am not one to seek out any sort of enlightenment from any type of drug because, simply, I'm not that type of person who depends on a substance to guide me or make my decisions. However, an experience such as this has surely got me thinking, and like I said, I haven't stopped thinking about it since it happened two nights ago.
Please supports: www.arenaethnobotanicals.com
Only the highest quality of salvia and other herbs.
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